RiSK
“Progress always involves risk; you can't expect to steal second base, and still keep your foot on first.”
~Fredrick Wilcox
RiSK. It’s a pretty hefty word right? But isn’t it exactly what we are all needing to do at times? Take risks? I was inspired by a blog I follow (thehouseofsmiths) to use that word more often. I need to put in into action. I hold myself back from accomplishing little to enormous goals all because I’m afraid of taking the risks to get to where I want to be. I even let this get in the way: what others may think. Pathetic I know. What if I fail? What if I actually accomplish it? Silly? Yes. I even think at times not only am I afraid of others, but I’m afraid of myself. I think I’m afraid of accomplishing things greater than what I think of myself….it means I have a higher standard to hold myself to. I don’t know if that makes sense to a lot of people....but it’s all making sense to me. I think of this time in my life where the risk of going to nursing school is actually coming into play. I’ve had it in the back of my mind for so long…that the time would come when I would have to face it. And then it came. It came head on. I’m not going to lie I was scared, out right freaked out. I tried to put on the “I’m excited” face, but deep inside I knew it wasn’t completely the truth. I was excited, but it was the fear that was in a sense swallowing up that little excitement I had. Now that I threw myself into the deep unknown of nursing school I’ve realized that I can do this. I’ve realized I have more determination, motivation, and excitement than I ever thought I did, even if I’ve had to dig deep to get to most of it. I’ve always let fear overtake me and have always had to push hard to past the “I want to give up” phase. But I’m here, pushing forward and I’m more excited than ever. Each day in school, in lab, in clinicals, I have to push myself…take Risks…put myself out there….be vulnerable. I’m learning it’s not the easiest thing, it’s not always the most comfortable thing to do, but it’s ALWAYS worth it.
So I will continue to Risk it…continue to push myself…I’ve got goals to achieve! I’m worth it.
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I AM SOOOOO PROUD of you and Josh! I have no doubt that you can both do whatever you set your mind to. I was reminded of something in Sunday School a few weeks ago....the Lord not only invites you but WANTS SO MUCH for you to ask HIM for help in tackling the difficulties of your goals; but we must ask. I remember someone in class saying, but I hate to always bother HIM with my "little" issues...HE wants us to ask. It is important to HIM, and to us, that we humble ourselves enough to ask for his guidance and assistance. The first week teaching my primary class was a trial in magnitude (I was pinched and spit on by one particularly trying young boy)...then I read something last week that if you can't get the children to behave, or be reverent or whatever it may be, then just love them. I prayed all week to that end and yesterday my class was, for the most part, reverent and other than a couple of outbursts (and the same little boy insisting the window sill was his seat) calm and went well....the difference was more me than them.....
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